Thursday, February 02, 2006
why is tz happening to me...
why...why...why...!!!!!
at this tyme....it is jz nt the rite tyme....
i so dead worried, confused...
all the mixed feelings....
im so sad & afraid...
afraid that the worse will come...very soon
*sigh*
wat sud i do...i really cnt do much...
i jz cant bear & nt ready to loose her yet...
jz nt yet....
people noe me as a happy-go-lucky gerl...
a person who always keep her emotions to herself....
But today was totally different....
especially when it comes to the person who gave birth to u.....
My MUM!!!
Although we stay in one roof...we hardy talks to each other...
But tat does't stop me frm loving n care for her...
*sob-sob*
Early morning i recd a phone call frm my sis..
jz when i was abt to wake-up to rush to work...
After hearing her condition...
my heart feel uneasy since then....
things got worse...
My sis called me again...
tz tyme im at work....
her(mum) condition worsen...
i jz burst out...
i cnt help it...
things is playing in my mind....
im nt prepared for the worst yet...
And i took half-day..n rush home....
*sob-sob*
the journey to home was uneasy....
i dun care wat ppl thinks of me...
crying in public in silence....
i jz dun wanna show how much i care for her..
tatz my ego lar....
BUT i truly love her...
thankful for bringin me to tz world..
*sob-sob*
Ya Allah... !!!
Please...im begging u...
Protect my MUM...
